Another love story

2011-12-13T21:58:00.002+08:00

Somewhere theres someone who dreams of your smile
and finds in your presense that life is worthwhile
So when you are lonely remember its true
somebody somewhere is thinking of you

Sometimes life’s not what it seems.
you’ll never know what you have until its gone.
Live life to the fullest and never give up.
take what you want and dont EVER hold back!!

when you dont know whether you really like someone alot or you love them, ask yourself why do you love this person, and if you cant find an answer, thats true love because then its neverending no matter what changes about this person you will alwyas love them. know that whatever happens he’ll always be there for you. that’s wat happened to me i realised i never truly knew why i love a person and i figured out that its because its true and sincere which means it can never break no matter what that person does to you

When do you know? ”

Because when love hits you it hits you hard. but it doesnt hurt, thats whats so great about it. Its a feeling that can never be described. Only ever felt

No matter what you do, No matter where you go, I just want you to know, I will always love you.

2011-08-26T22:12:00.002+08:00

This are the pictures from my 2nd Year Welcoming Night. Credit to Fatin for the pictures.

I can just walk around bugis street, begging for money already. haha.

2011-07-08T21:53:00.005+08:00

It doesn't matter how long we may have been stuck in a sense of our limitations. If we go into a darkened room and turn on the light, it doesn't matter if the room has been dark for a day, a week, or ten thousand years -- we turn on the light and it is illuminated. Once we control our capacity for love and happiness, the light has been turned on.

I don't really mind when we run out of words to say or when our conversations get a little boring. When we're hanging out together and not doing anything. It doesn't really matter to me because having you by my side is already good enough. I'll spent just hours and hours looking at you, and just let time passes us by. To me, every moment spent together doesn't have to be special or breath-taking. I'll always feel like the luckiest person on Earth because all i need is just you.

2011-07-07T12:30:00.007+08:00

Sometimes the heart sees what is invisible to the eye.

As we grow older together, As we continue to change with age, There is one thing that will never change. . . I will always keep falling in love with you.

I've let you down a thousand times and watch you drown a million times. But you never stop loving me and cares me like how you used to. For that, i thank you and tries hard not to make the same mistakes again. Forgive me dear as i'm not that perfect.

Pimple pimple please go.

2011-06-22T21:44:00.007+08:00

I need to get back in shape and take good care of my beauty!

Here's something you need to know. You don't have to spend on expensive stuff just to make your face glow, cleaner or better. Because most of what you need comes from the kitchen. I kinda just learn this from my family and from the internet, of course. You'll be surprise when you see it, really. I was too, not that i don't believe in natural ingredients. I do but i just don't know what kind.

Do you know that honey and milk makes the best ingredient for a face mask? Neither did i know.

I'm currently having my pimples breakout, looks like my menses are coming! So, i need to maintain. And to maintain, i need to get some ingredients.

Going shopping a.s.a.p, you should too. :D

Go get: eggs, tomatoes, lemon, lime, bio-yogurt, oat meal, honey, milk, green tea, sugar.

We do not remember days; we remember moments.

2011-06-10T21:40:00.003+08:00

I was just looking back on my bloggy and found so many pictures - some of what i don't like and some which leaves lots and lots of memories.

A memory is what is left when something happens and does not completely unhappen.

While reading some of the posts i've made, i realized how brave and how strong i've been through out those years i suffer from you know what happen. And hopefully, just hopefully things are going to be better than it may seem, insyallah.

Keluarga Bahagia

2011-05-26T22:27:00.002+08:00

"Life is too short to be miserable, so take everything as a challenge and face it with confident"

Have a good day everyone. (:

Relationship tips.

2011-03-29T20:41:00.007+08:00

Relationship tip: Don’t keep your girl waiting.

Don’t keep her waiting. If you’ve told her that you’ll be there to see her then you better be there to see her. When you tell her that she expects you to arrive at her doorstep and greet her with a big kiss and a long hug. If you don’t then of course she will worry. Give her what she expects if possible. You may just might make the relationship that much stronger. Don’t keep her waiting. If you’re running late or ran into some problems then be straight up and tell her. Don’t be ignorant and not reply to her texts/calls. Take the extra minute to let her know that you’re running late and she’ll give you the extra comfort and care you expect as well.

I know all relationships are different and unique-- however in the the sense of a functional dynamic what do you feel works best?

A balanced one where that dynamic is fairly constant and give and take, of affection and support, are in balance. So the giving and taking are roughly shared equally and simultaneously for the majority of the time.

Or does a more fluid arrangement, the giving and taking changing its direction depending on the the needs of the both partners at a giving time, hold up better over time and adversity. or possibly in the case of a primary giver and a primary taker.

Well, The first, because a standard relationship is made up of two people committed to each other, and there should definitely be a mutual give and take and a balance of supporting the needs of the relationship. However, the two people in the relationship also have individual needs, and those should not be ignored.

A combination of both is probably healthiest for a relationship, insyallah.

Happiness

2011-03-27T17:45:00.003+08:00

No one is in control of your happiness but you; therefore, you have the power to change anything about yourself or your life that you want to change.I cannot believe that the purpose of life is to be "happy." I think the purpose of life is to be useful, to be responsible, to be compassionate. It is, above all, to matter and to count, to stand for something, to have made some difference that you lived at all.

No matter what age you are, or what your circumstances might be, you are special, and you still have something unique to offer. Your life, because of who you are, has meaning. I've always thought negatively, but today, i need to change. To stand up for my own and be independent.

Well, it's just a plan now. Slowly, i'll proof everyone that i'm not just one pathetic troublemaker girl. I am me. My name's Sery and i want to make a different.

that is how much you mean to me.

2011-03-26T18:07:00.004+08:00

If I were deaf, I’ll hear your laughter through your smile. If I were mute, I’ll speak to you through your eyes. If I were blind, I’ll see you through your touch. I can live without my senses but life won’t make sense without you.

So many of us either fear tomorrow or regret yesterday. Me? I won’t fear tomorrow if I’d get to be with you. I don’t regret yesterday cause one yesterday, I met you. And i'll never forget that ever.

I’ll walk with you through the desert heat, I’ll climb the mountain’s highest peak, I’ll swim forever in the deepest sea just to prove to you that you mean life to me. And if you tell me that's not enough to prove to you, then, i don't know what else i could do. :(

You must know this dear, that i'm one girl. I'm not strong enough to face anything and everything alone. You should've know me well by now that i'm never independent and i know that i should be. But baby, you've no idea how badly i've fall for you. And how i've adjust my living with your presence and if you go, everything will change. My life will change and it will affect everyone around me. So, please don't ever go.

tell you what.

2011-03-16T21:47:00.003+08:00

I could have just spit it out and tell you the whole story from the beginning but i didn't. And i was relieved that i didn't tell you in the first place. Now, that the three of us had talked and i've told the truth. There's nothing to fear anymore because i know you've got my back and will never turn away from me.

I've decided to change site since this blog holds too many past memories. It's not going to help me in the future, nor is it helping me now. I don't want to look back anymore, there's no point. It just breaks my heart each time i look back. I need to go forward and leave everything behind. Apparently, my boyfriend has been a good help for me. He'll try anything just to make me happy. And i love it when he tries to make a joke right after an argument. He makes me feel important and i like it. Like i deserve this happiness and this will make me a stronger person in the future, hopefully.

Nothing stokes the flames of love like a vision of you.

2011-03-08T00:07:00.002+08:00

What is Love?

Our favorite description of love is from the movie Captain Corelli's Mandolin:

"Love is a temporary madness. It erupts like an earthquake and then subsides. And when it subsides you have to make a decision. You have to work out whether your roots have become so entwined together that it is inconceivable that you should ever part. Because this is what love is. Love is not breathlessness, it is not excitement, it is not the promulgation of promises of eternal passion. That is just being "in love" which any of us can convince ourselves we are. Love itself is what is left over when being in love has burned away, and this is both an art and a fortunate accident. Your mother and I had it, we had roots that grew towards each other underground, and when all the pretty blossoms had fallen from our branches we found that we were one tree and not two."

-St. Augustine

I know your life can go on without me, that you can be happy without me, that you can survive without me. But even if you turn me away, I will still choose to stay with you

I don’t know why I keep on loving you despite the fact that I’ll get hurt again just like before. I never learn cause I don’t want to. Not now when I’m still strong to fall for you over and over again. If someone would ask me what a beautiful life means, I would lean my head on your shoulder, hold you close to me and answer with a smile, “Like this.”There’s a love that only you can give, a smile that only your lips can show, a twinkle that can only be seen in your eyes and my life that only you can complete.If I can just make everything fall where it should be, I would. If I could make life better for you, I would. But I can’t. All I can do is to let you know that mine has been better because of you

I love you.

Jennifer Lopez - On The Floor ft. Pitbull

2011-03-05T12:53:00.000+08:00

Losing hope

2011-03-04T23:05:00.004+08:00

I'm not myself, as for today. I'm not in my best mood at all and i'm in the verge of crying out. But there's no one here to comfort me. Not even one soul. My boyfriend's busy out there working. I don't blame him. I need a hug, i need someone to be there and tell me that its okay. I need someone to understand my situation and give me a helping hand. Tell me to snap out of this fucked up reality show of my life and tell me that this is life. I need someone to tell me that it's normal to feel this way and i'm not alone. I need you..........

By the way, Happy 19th Birthday Herdawatie!

We used to be this close whenever wherever, but because we lack of meets up, our friendship is a little drift. I hope to find time to meet up each and every one of the ladies. I miss us.

Oh, look how much i've grown!

2011-02-19T15:45:00.002+08:00

I found this picture in my old computer. Look how amazing i've grown.

i'll reach you with my wings.

2011-02-11T20:48:00.001+08:00

. I’ll reach for your hand in the cold of winter, I’ll reach for your hand in the heat of summer. But if my short life can’t reach the dawn of spring, I promise, in heaven, I’ll reach you with my wings.

Pass out

2011-02-07T22:12:00.004+08:00

My boyfriend finally pass out from 3 months of hell training in Civil Defence, Fire Fighter. I must say that i'm very proud of him. The training ain't that easy and unexpectedly, he managed to pull throughout the whole 3 months. I can finally meet him constantly. (:

Though we had a rough start when he's always busy with training while im always with school, we managed to find more time for each other, now that he pass out.

Happy new year

2010-12-28T13:44:00.004+08:00

I try to take one day at a time, but sometimes several days attack me at once.

Oh well, it's a good thing that 2011 is around the corner. I'm hoping to start a new fresh life. (:

Secondary school times

2010-12-12T00:08:00.003+08:00

I used to look way younger like this, but then i grew older.

NAFA meet-up

2010-12-01T17:49:00.003+08:00

I love this people so much because they never fail to make me laugh so hard until i drop. (:

Love asks me no questions, and gives me endless support…

2010-11-28T16:27:00.005+08:00

Time always goes by a lot slower when i miss you.

Though NS had stole all the times me and you should be spending together, as long as i get to see you once a week is good enough. Rather than i don't get to see you at all. By now, you should be packing up all your stuffs to book in. But let me tell you one thing, you're always 24/7 on my mind. So, don't try to give me some space because i don't need it. I just need you.

I've never felt this way about anyone, the way i feel about you. From the moment and each time i see you, you never left my mind. Every time we talk, my stomach is filled with butterflies. You have no idea how boring everything was before i met you.

Falling in love with you is like jumping off a really tall building. My brain tells me it is not a good idea but my heart tells me i can fly. I love you, i really do, not for what you are. But for what i am when i am with you.

Every time i see you, it just proves to me that it really doesn't matter how far away we live from each other now, or how long we go without seeing each other - we love each other just the same. Even a little more from all that missing each other we've been doing. <3

Baby, you're the best thing that ever happen to me.....

You always pull me closer when i try to walk away.

You always comfort me when i cry

and never tells me to leave no matter how mad you were.

From the bottom of my heart,

love of your life <3

A faithful friend is the medicine of life.

2010-11-25T19:24:00.003+08:00

What is a friend?

A single soul dwelling in two bodies.

A faithful friend is the medicine of life. And i finally know that the people in the clan has no idea what friendship is. They simply just don't understand the real meaning of it. I'm sick and tired of all this bullshit. We girls, have made up our mind to leave vons for good.

Do all things with love.

2010-11-20T18:32:00.002+08:00

Do all things with love

Life without love is like a tree without blossoms or fruit. Learn from yesterday, live for today, hope for tomorrow. The important thing is not to stop questioning.

Life is an opportunity, benefit from it.

Life is beauty, admire it.

Life is bliss, taste it.

Life is a dream, realize it.

Life is a challenge, meet it.

Life is a duty, complete it.

Life is a game, play it.

Life is a promise, fulfill it.

Life is sorrow, overcome it.

Life is a song, sing it.

Life is a struggle, accept it.

Life is a tragedy, confront it.

Life is an adventure, dare it.

Life is luck, make it.

Life is too precious, do not destroy it.

Life is life, fight for it.

2010-11-04T23:31:00.002+08:00

Promise me you'll always remember: You're braver than you believe, and stronger than you seem and smarter than you think.

2010-10-24T15:34:00.000+08:00

Nobody really cares if you're miserable, so you might as well be happy. (:

Love is just a word till someone you meet gives it a meaning.

2010-10-23T12:05:00.006+08:00

True love is, when everything in the world is going wrong,

all you have to do is look at that special person and,

suddenly, everything in the world is right again.

A lot of people walk in and out of my life, but... you're one of the only ones I ever really wanted to stick around. And i know that i was wrong to treat you unfairly, i'm sorry. I wish i could rewind back and fix my mistakes. But who am i to change it all, i'm just one bloody human. Baby, this time round, i promise i'll treat you better and bring those fun and laughters we used to had.

HSM3 - Musikvideo - "Right here right now"

2010-10-17T15:25:00.001+08:00

Intense love does not measure, it just gives.

2010-10-16T20:50:00.002+08:00

I may not get to see you as often as I like. I may not get to hold you in my arms all through the night. But deep in my heart I truly know, you're the one that I love, and I can't let you go.

What can you do to promote world peace?

Go home and love your family.

2010-10-16T00:15:00.004+08:00

Being with you is like having every single one of my wishes come true. I love you...

I have found the paradox that if I love until it hurts, then there is no hurt, but only more love. Hah, oh well, atleast i'm trying to live my life to the fullest without getting hurt. Let's just spread the love everywhere i go. I'll let no one ever come to me without leaving happier. (:

My vons babies

2010-10-11T22:50:00.004+08:00

“Missing someone gets easier everyday because even though you are one day further from the last time you saw them, you are one day closer to the next time you will.”

I'm having so much fun.

2010-10-07T07:45:00.004+08:00

In need of hugs

2010-09-27T22:55:00.004+08:00

Don't spend your time and give your heart to any guy who makes you wonder about anything related to his feelings to you.

When the tears i cry will not fade and in a way i wished that they did not fade. I thought that if i let him in my heart, nothing would change. I was wrong and i knew that i would be to.

But i don't worry when all goes wrong because breaking down won't help me to move on.

Oh, anyway. Happy Birthday Ayah, i love you. *hugs*

don't break my heart; all i'll do is lose the pieces

2010-09-25T23:19:00.004+08:00

As i wait here in the silence i hear my steady heart beat. I dont see why u cant be with me.but its the way it has to be. I told myself I wouldnt cry, but I am still asking God why. Yes it hurts, though it goes to show, that God only takes the best.

I keep playing the same song over and over because all it reminds me is of you and how special you made me feel. Sometimes, when i say "oh, im fine", i want you to look into my eyes and say "tell the truth".

heartbroken

2010-09-25T11:56:00.002+08:00

" I can't talk to you anymore, it's not that I am mad at you, it's just that when I talk to you I realize how much I love you and when I realize how much I love you, I realize I can't have you and that makes me love you even more."

Raya

2010-09-21T23:11:00.004+08:00

One project down, two more to go! I'm very packed with school lately, i couldn't even find time for myself. Or even you bloggy. This year raya is damn bad because

Shakespeare Sonnet's - In Faith I Do Not Love Thee With Mine Eyes

"In faith, I do not love thee with mine eyes,

For they in thee a thousand errors note;

But 'tis my heart that loves what they despise,

Who in despite of view is pleased to dote;

Nor are mine ears with thy tongue's tune delighted,

Nor tender feeling, to base touches prone,

Nor taste, nor smell, desire to be invited

To any sensual feast with thee alone:

But my five wits nor my five senses can

Dissuade one foolish heart from serving thee,

Who leaves unsway'd the likeness of a man,

Thy proud hearts slave and vassal wretch to be:

Only my plague thus far I count my gain,

That she that makes me sin awards me pain."

RAYA

2010-09-17T00:17:00.001+08:00

Two souls with but a single thought, Two hearts that beat as one.

2010-09-06T09:44:00.002+08:00

As we grow older together, As we continue to change with age, There is one thing that will never change. . . I will always keep falling in love with you.

2010-09-05T09:32:00.003+08:00

2010-08-31T23:17:00.002+08:00

Some Day You'll Cry For Me Like I Cried For You,

Some Day You'll Miss Me Like I Missed You,

Some Day You'll Need Me Like I Needed You,
Some Day You'll Love Me But I Won't Love You

2010-08-24T23:37:00.002+08:00

I love this bunch of girlfriends i have effing much.

Spore Zoo trip!

2010-08-19T23:03:00.003+08:00

Hell lots of fun

2010-08-17T23:02:00.002+08:00

Despite the fact that i'm still upset about my boyfriend's absence for a month in my life, i'm still trying to enjoy my life to the fullest. With pretty good and fun classmates i have in school, i manage to laugh every single day without fail. Those smiles never stop showing, i tell you.

Though we're in theatre, doesn't mean so the subject here is easy and slack. We just finished a performance put up by ourselves with no guide from the teachers. We even have project presentation and production to settle. It's not a big deal to me, but i'm just not used to it. Hopefully by the end of this 3 years, i managed to complete all module with good grades! (:

My pillars of strength and the closest girls i'm with in school, Poojitha missed out a lot of fun with us. I miss her. :((

Legality

2010-08-13T22:24:00.003+08:00

I'm finally 18 years old. Hip hip hurray! (:

I would like to thanks everyone who make an effort to wish me, happy birthday. It makes me feel so touched. And to those who gave me present, i love you to the core. *hugs*

the pants is from Pooji, Shahina and Shiena.

teddy From Kina & Aisyah.

From Siti Maznah

From the six molecules.

Ipod from my brothers! :D

I've been very busy, i hope to find more time for you bloggy. :D

Specially made

2010-08-07T11:57:00.004+08:00

Goodbye Boredom, Hello Good Times!

School has been a blast to me though it's tiring to get up every morning and come home late at night. I couldn't find time for myself, but atleast i'm having fun in school. Rather than rotting in class trying to figure out maths or chemistry. I have fun, joy and laughter here and i'm hoping this would last.

Go theatre go! :D

missing

2010-07-20T19:59:00.001+08:00

Today marks the 6th day Hadi's missing. :(

2010-07-09T01:00:00.001+08:00

you're the only one within my heart, baby.

Officially Attached.

2010-07-01T23:55:00.007+08:00

30 June 10

Finally, i've got the chance to meet Hadi. It's been a week since i last met him. Yes, i know. Big deal. Whatever it is, i can't deny the fact that i miss him so damn much and was really looking forward to meet him. Even when i get the chance to, things turn out bad.

Jealousy, anger, frustrated and really upset. Even when i try so hard to hold back my tears, i'm just not strong enough.

You can say it's minor, but to me, it isn't. I shall not brag here. To those who knew, they should understand how i feel.

Anyway........

I got this for him.

After, 4hours of waiting, he finally arrived.

.....and we try to settle things.

The next day.

1 July 2010

We had lunch at Hei Sushi. I've been craving for it long enough.

Tuna Mayo and Spicy Tuna.

Enagi and Kani.

When i was about to go home, he asked for a minute or two to talk.

I didn't expected anything..........

until he got on his knee.........

......gave me this ring and asked if i wanna be part of his life.

OF COURSE, I SAY YES.

"It's amazing how we could last this long, through those obstacle we faced. You'll always mean a lot to me than you could ever imagine. For you have done so much to fill my life with happiness and thought there's so much more in my heart than words can ever say. "

I love you Hadi.

holiday

2010-06-22T12:13:00.001+08:00

I've so much to update but i don't where to start. I'm going off for my vacation this evening. So, i'll be away from 22nd to 28th June. :D

Shopping

2010-06-20T15:33:00.003+08:00

I want a new dress. I've been eye-ing for this dress for almost a month now. :(

2010-06-17T23:05:00.002+08:00

Hey, i just wanna update all my friends out there that my handphone number will still be the same! :D

A year celebration

2010-06-12T16:02:00.004+08:00

Hey there!

I know it's been a long time. Oh well, I've been working so hard until i don't have time for you, bloggy. I miss you so.

Anyway, here's the bad news. I LOST MY HANDPHONE.

It all happened two days ago.................

Two days ago, Hadi brought me out on a lunch date. It really surprise me because usually we would go eat anywhere. But this time, it's different.

I had Creamy White Mushroom Scrambled Egg Rice! HAHA.

While he had Spicy tomato pasta, i think.

Then, we went off to some places.

And, here's the part when after i realized i lost my handphone. I didn't cry nor did i panic. I stayed calm because i believe in karma. I begin to sincerely accept how unfair life can be.

See, though it's a bad time to smile, i still smile like nothing bad had happened. But deep inside, i feel like cursing how careless i was when i lose my handphone.

Oh well, Present time! I actually wrap the pictures with a newspaper, just to make him eager to find out what's inside.

This is what i got for him, it took me just a day to create this but a whole year just to show him how much i really love him. (:

"So baby, now's your turn. You still owe me your speech. "

One year

2010-06-06T15:20:00.002+08:00

Happy 1st year Anniversary

Every time i look at you, i can't believe a love so true. I took my time and put my trust in you. I must admit it was hard to do and every minute that i spent with you made me realize i had nothing to lose. And deep down i always hope you would be mine some day.

Even though you hurt me quite a number of times, my love for you will never end as long as time keeps passing by, you will always be my baby boy.

I love you Aliyy Hadi!

Holidays

2010-06-02T23:38:00.004+08:00

Yes, i know i know, it's been a long time since i update. You see, i really can't find time to update. I've been working so hard until i forget about blogger. Sorry, but come to think of it, who reads my dusty blog anyway.......

Just so you know, i'm here to express, not to impress! Cheers!

Good news, I'm going to be away for a holiday in Sarawak on 22June until 28June! Finally a holiday break for my whole family! I've been waiting for these days to come. I'm left with 20 more days until i go. So, don't miss me too much ok!

Hadi and i had a tough times these days, but i really hope i can handle this on my own. Furthermore, he'll be leaving for NS in 7th September! He will be enlisted in Civil Defence Force. That's what he always wanted to be in and he made it.

I'm proud of him but at the same time, i'm half-hearted to let him go there. Really. Imagine the days without him. If you have a lover, you should know what i mean.

I've been in this situation before, and i'm facing this again. But hopefully this time round, i really hope he won't change. I've put up so much faith in him, how can i give him up half way through our journey. Furthermore, this sunday is our 1st year dating! Hurray! :D

I really hope we would last long. Amin. :D

Goodnight, love! And happy holidays!

If I act like you

2010-06-01T23:11:00.004+08:00

What if i had a thing on the side and made you cry almost all the time, would the rules change up or would they still apply ? If i was always gone, hit the sun and then getting home, would you like that? Hanging out with my friends every single day, would you like that ? Never calls, would you like that ?

I don't think you would like that........

2010-05-22T13:41:00.004+08:00

Mood:

Hello lovelies.

Somehow i do realized that i've not been updating this dusty blog for quite a long time. I've been busy working at Explorer Kid. Yes, i've changed job because i couldn't stand working at Coffee Bean with such racist workers and annoying customers. The pay in Explorer Kid is way much better than Coffee Bean. Though the timing of working in Explorer Kid is much more tough, I still managed to cover the longest, 11 hours of working!! Phew.

If any of you, want to go out with me, you have to let me know a week earlier, A WEEK!

This coming week's work timing.

Monday - 1pm to 7.30pm

Tuesday - 7.30am to 5pm

Wednesday - 8.30am to 7.30pm

Thursday - 11.30am to 5pm

Friday - 12pm - 8pm

Long hours, but i managed to change my mindset, to take this job like as if i'm schooling.

Schooling? oh yeah.

If you haven't heard the big news, i was actually accepted in NAFA, Diploma in Theatre this year and will be starting school on July. It's still a shocked because i made it through the Test and the Audition despite myself being sick at that moment.

So, since i'm going to start schooling, i really need to go shopping badly. Because i really don't know what i'm going to wear to school. I need shoes! That's the most important one, because i just throw away three of my shoes, since they're no good anymore. So, i'm left with about 5 shoes maybe.

Another good news is that i've finally clean half of my room and was planning to paint them in red. I really hope i could finish it before Raya this year! :D

Hadi and i will be reaching a year dating together this 6th June. And i seriously can't wait till the day comes. We were planning to celebrate together but seriously, i really need to find something to wear, because i don't know what i wanna wear!!!

Good night, love

Commitment

2010-05-19T15:08:00.003+08:00

"Commitment is the component of love. Short term commitment is the decision that one loves someone. The long term aspect is the commitment to maintain that love."

Siglapian

2010-05-11T23:05:00.003+08:00

STOMP: Enraged youth assaults female schoolmate with slap after slap and slams her head.

Click here.

Have a good look.

It's lucky enough that i'm no longer a Siglapian, really. It's so embarrassing to have people looking down on Siglapians!! And this isn't the first time......................!!

2010-05-11T00:03:00.003+08:00

Mood:

I, i can't seem to sleep.

Realizing things just haven't been the way it is. You just don't understand me.

I don't know what's wrong with me, what have took over me. I can't think properly and i'm really sick of everything that's been happening around me. I'm losing myself, trying to compete with everyone else instead of just being me.

Goodnight, love.

I love life because what more is there.

2010-05-07T17:36:00.010+08:00

"Dream as if you'll live forever, live as if you'll die today.”

“Nobody can go back and start a new beginning, but anyone can start today and make a new ending.”

"Hi, i'm Sery and i want to make a difference in my life. "

I have a simple philosophy: Fill what's empty. Empty what's full. Scratch where it itches.

Goodnight, love

You are what I never knew I always wanted

2010-04-30T00:09:00.006+08:00

Mood:

To be your friend was all I ever wanted; to be your lover was all I ever dreamed. I never really thought that we could ever last more than just a friend. It was like a dream come true. At first, i wasn't prepared for what may come, when you confess everything, i was shocked, surprised and didn't know what to do. I was jumping on my bed, wanting to say, "i do" but didn't because some part of me, just thought that maybe i should take more time to know more about you. Besides, i don't wanna break down and cry over my bed if one day we had a big fought and broke up. I want a lasting relationship. I don't wanna have a heartbreak.

Goodnight, love

Exhausted

2010-04-27T23:09:00.002+08:00

Mood:

I've been going out to work Monday to Friday and i've got class on Saturday and i can only rest on Sunday, in additional if my family has no plans. I'm tired, exhausted and sick of working. But i can't stop now, i've got to keep on going.

Anyway, i've been meeting Seri and Hadi after work and sometimes when i had my off day.

goodnight, love

2010-04-25T13:56:00.009+08:00

Mood:

Finally i've got the time to clear the dust on my blog. Miss me ?

Despite the fact that i'm currently working at Coffee Bean, i was offered another job which is a network marketing business at Venture Era. The deal was quite interesting and i was really looking forward to find out more. But, when i informed my parents, they were shocked and disagreed. They mentioned about other network marketing companies who brainwash people but if you ask me, i wasn't even brainwashed. So, i can't decide if my parents were right or maybe they just misunderstood that they took all network marketing the same as others. As far as i know, this company isn't politics. hmmmmmm.......

24 April 2010

Mood:

The cake looks tempting, don't you think ? It's called chocolate truffle, it has chocolate, creamy and raisins. I must say it's delicious, so go try some. This is the cake i bought at polar for Aly and Azryn's birthday on the 24th.

On the 22th, I had a mini birthday celebration for Aly with Hadi, Seri and An. It was a last minute plan. So, edah didn't tag along.

As for my ladies, I'm still looking forward for our next outing, because we still have someone's birthday to celebrate!

14 April 2010

Mood:

If i was in ITE, i would have start school already. Damn, i want school so badly.

Anyway, I've finally complete my English test and Drama Audition, it wasn't bad after all. At first, i didn't believe i could do it, but hack care, i have to. If i don't, i would fail and lose a dream i've ever want.

So, now i'm waiting for the School to accept my request. If they ever reject, worse comes for all, i would try again next year or move on to another school. Wish me luck.

I've been spending more time with Hadi. Though we had a few arguments, we still manage to solve things within ourselves. (:

11 April 2010

Mood:

Mind the fuck face. I was tired at that point of time. pfft. Anyway, this is the first time i got the chance to celebrate a close cousin's marriage. Really. Because most of my cousins are still young, so it's gonna take a few years time till someone else from the family marry. Woah, imagine the chaos!

The bride stayed in Johor, so the marriage took place there. I had to come by the day before, so that i could spent more hours putting a thick make-up! HAHA!

Take that!! thick enough for you?

Here's the bride!

The bride and groom! :D

Someday, i just wish if i'm gonna marry to someone, i want that person to be devoted to me. To have all the time with me, to be gentle with me, to be loving, caring, understanding each other. I don't want to have a divorce in the middle when i had kids growing up and when the happy days just had to end the way it'll be. I want to love the person i'll marry, i wanna love the marriage i would soon build with him, i wanna love the kids we had, i wanna love the happiness we used to share.

I know, it's too early to think, but i just can't help it. All those drama-mamas on tv got me thinking about it.

Goodnight, love

Unforgettable memories.

2010-04-10T00:01:00.006+08:00

Mood:

"The whispers of my name as it leaves your lips,

the gentle cares of your fingertips.

This feeling completeness when i think of you,

the beautiful thing you say and do.

The way my senses react when you're near me,

this feeling longing to have you here with me. "

This is my short fringe which i had mention earlier on the previous posts.

Anyway, i'm going to Johor tomorrow until Sunday for my cousin's wedding. So, don't miss me too much. Take care everyone and wish me a safe journey! :D

I miss this, so much. School are starting soon for them.

"Wish you girls good luck. If you find a new friend, don't ever forget us."

So, Arina's birthday is coming, what shall we do, girls ?

Goodnight, love

10 months

2010-04-06T23:34:00.002+08:00

mood:

Happy 10 Monthsary!

"Semoga kite panjang umur dan happy-happy selalu!"

'For when i looked into your eyes, the love light i did see. Your eyes they spoke thousand words and all of them to me. So, let me tell you darling, before i say, i do. Just look into my eyes and see, my endless love for you. '

I love you. this much.

Today's work is K-O, too many customers = headaches.

I was supposed to meet up Watie and Ain today after work to collect my cert but i had a last minute school registration to settle. So, i did and now, i have an English test and an audition to attend soon. -.-"

I've got three things to collect from Siglap, my cert, testimonial and O's Art portfolio. Hope to get them as soon as possible cause im looking forward to meet up with my Netball juniors! :D

Goodnight, love

2010-04-05T22:44:00.002+08:00

Mood:

I've been busy spending quality times with family until i have no time for myself.

So, I actually list down on a small notebook for this week's plan.

Monday, which is today - I celebrated my 10 months with Hadi.

Tuesday - Working and School registration.

Wednesday - ~~WWW with ladies~~

Thursday - Day off for Aly.

Friday - Picnic maybe.

Saturday - Staying over at Johor for Kakak Alis's wedding preparation.

Sunday - Kakak Alis's wedding!

Ladies's outing was cancel, so i might be working on wednesday.

Alhamdulillah, Hadi and i are going to reach 10 months tomorrow. Though we had ups and downs, we managed to settle it within ourselves without a third party. Insyallah we would last even longer than this.

Goodnight, love

Broke!

2010-04-01T23:38:00.004+08:00

Mood:

I'm broke. I have no money left and i was planning to go out tomorrow but i can't predict if mum would let met. Damn.

I've nothing else to update, am currently waiting for Hadi's call. Just hope he would reach home before i fell asleep.

ok, goodnight love

April fool's day

2010-03-31T22:57:00.008+08:00

Mood:

It's 12.39am now, 1st April, which means it's APRIL FOOL's Day. Good times when i used to pranked my friends. Not to worry, this year i'm not planning any pranks at anyone at all cause i've grown tired. HA-HA!

I've finally registered into a school for a diploma and will have to go for an interview. I never liked interviews, it gets me nervous! I won't be attending in ITE and that's final.

Lately, i've been having only about 5hours of sleep a day but doesn't matter, i still manage to wake up early for work. Whenever i planned to sleep in the evening, it always turns out fresh. This is sick. I've not been giving my 100% effort in work and i was planning to quit anyway but i don't know what other job i wanna do. :(

As you all know, i'm dating with Hadi and we're still are. The point of us changing our status in facebook to 'in an open relationship" is to get those "admires" of us out of the way, like SERIOUSLY. I've grown tired of jealousy on those girls flirting with him. I just wanna be serious with him, once and for all. I've never had any intention of playing with his heart, nor do i have any plan of leaving. So, i really hope those "admires" would just stay out of our lives!

Lastly, Congratulation to my closest cousin, ika who made it to Singapore Poly. I hope she'll do great in her new school. It's lucky that she got into the same school with her "admire"... wow, wonder how she'll act. But anyway, i'm really looking forward for her love life. "May you achieve to find your dream guy. "

This pictures were taken when we were doing our "Belief in books of Islam" project.

Okay, i'm done. Goodnight, love

Ignorance is the new bestfriend.

2010-03-25T23:05:00.004+08:00

Mood:

Despite my blocked nose and a cough, i actually made it through today's work. Usually i won't bother to go but today, i just feel like going. I took off for tomorrow because i was planing to go shopping with Hadi badly. Like seriously i've been craving to shop!!

So, today's work was tiring especially if you have bloody damn fussy customers. I hate the feeling of being bullied, especially if i'm trying to do my work and some customer just try to persuade me to break the rules.

Especially changing of the tea bags. Rule states that i'm NOT suppose to change the tea bags for re-fills. Some customers just don't fcuking get it, they keep on bugging me to change the tea bags.

Situation 1

Our teabags doesn't come from Singapore. One cup of coffee cost $3.50, Hot teas cost $4. So, think about it, if one person bought a tea and wants to change a tea bag, we lose $4. If 4 cups, equals to $16.

Customer A: 'Can you help me change the tea bags, it's dirty already.'

- I don't care. Who the hell ask you to dirty the teabag if you knew you wanted a re-fill.

Customer B: ' I use this teabag already, can help me change it ?'

- The teabag can be re-use again for ATLEAST two times!!

Customer C: *waves* Help me re-fill and change the tea bags.

Myself: I'm so sorry (which i'm not) I can only re-fill but i can't change the tea bags!

Customer C: I don't care, i want you to change it. I can't tell which is mine.

. there were 4cups and all wants re-fill. By right, his cup was just right infront of him and he can't tell ? (WTF)

Myself: I'll just separate yours from the others. (fake smile)

Customer C: No no, i don't want. I want a new tea bag for all cups!! (angry already) AND WASH ALL THE CUPS FOR ME, i can't tell which is which. (-.-)!

Situation 2

Sometimes being nice have a limit, if the customer just gives you shit, how am i suppose to return with a good service. I was taught to put customer's first like taking their orders and then, i was asked to repeat their orders, to confirm that all orders are correct. If the orders goes wrong, they blame us.

Myself: Hi mdm, May i take your order please. (smile)

Customer A: Can you hold on, i'm still thinking.

- How can i tell, you were looking at me.!

When i look away...........

Customer A: *waiting* excuse me, why are you still still standing there, i want to order!

- Oh, you were ready ?

Myself: *Repeat order* Is that all, sir ?

Customer B: YES, can you please hurry up! >.<

- ZOMG! So so fcuking impatient.......

Myself: Here's your change, mdm.

Customer C: ey, i give you $50, why i got $23.

So, i had my calculation wrong...... I apologize over and over again, but all she gave was, this annoying angry face.

Situation 3

I hate those fancy rich kind, they just look down on such people. Believe me, you can see plenty at my work place. I try to serve at my best, but if they can't be patient, then i can't be at my best.

Customer A: Excuse me, can i have my food ?

- Impatient people, it's only been 5min since he arrived and had his order. -.-!

Customer B: Is this cup clean? What about this fork and knife ?

- Du-uh! We shampoo them with soap and water and even put them into the dishwasher. How clean you want it to be ?!!

Actually there's more but i'm already getting tired, i'll continue again some day.

Goodnight, love.

Best of my life

2010-03-24T23:36:00.003+08:00

Mood:

I'm currently listening to Kenangan Terindah by Samson and suddenly a flashback of good memories just pop inside my head...... How i wish i could turn back time. Anyway, i'm having a slight block-nose right now, i cant seem to breathe in properly.

Lately, Hadi and i have this slight jealousy problem. Sometimes i get jealous over a girl who's closer or a friend of Hadi. When i think about it over and over again, the actual fact is that i shouldn't be jealous of any because i trust him but i still feel it anyway. AND i can't seem to get over it. He and i really need to spend more quality time together alone because i still need a constant reassurance that he loves me as much as i do, really.

B.S.W is back on track, we've been hanging out more ever since i-don't-know when. But it feels great because we're bringing back good old memories again. I really hope this last.

So, my six ladies have been M.I.A. We still have WWW outing which haven't been decide by Ain, Amira and Demi. Please update about our outing as soon as possible because i miss you all like crazy. :(

Goodnight, love

I've return.

2010-03-23T23:53:00.005+08:00

Mood: /

Hello Gorgeous!

Finally, i'm blogging again. You've no idea how much i miss you so much bloggy! I've been busy with work lately and after work, i usually hang out with Hadi and some friends. Just yesterday, i met up with Tasha, Demi, Eda and Seri. It's been a long time since we hang out together, we should really meet up frequently.

I'm starting to feel empty, ever since secondary school ends. It's like the ladies and i really need a lot of catching-up to do, seriously. Because i miss them hell lots. We promised to meet up every month despite busyness every one had. So, i'm really hoping each one of my ladies doesn't forget the promise. Anyway, i was thinking of a ladies group outing. This include all the previous girlfriends who left a year ago. Like it or not, i still think it's a good idea. Ladies, i'll inform you once again when i confirmed! (:

I had my fringe cut very short and i think i look dumb. Eda even laughed at me when she saw me. I really really hate my fringe now, Please grow faster!!

I've been having minor arguments with Hadi lately. When i come to think of it, it's actually not a big deal but i've been so fcuking sensitive i made it worse. I really don't know what's becoming of me........ I really need to find myself.

Goodnight, love.

2010-03-19T23:09:00.004+08:00

Give me some time to find time, so i could update. I've been busy with work lately. :(

9 monthsary

2010-03-13T13:11:00.005+08:00

Suddenly, i feel like i'm too lazy to get my hands on the computer. Like seriously, but people keep bugging me to update.

Yesterday, i had a mini picnic with Hadi to celebrate our 9th Months together. Well, not officially together together but we're together. As per usual, i am pretty happy whenever he's with me.

I want us the way it is.

2010-03-10T19:47:00.007+08:00

"Sometimes you have to put walls around you, not to keep people out

but to see who cares enough to break them down just to be with you. "

I'm an idiot. I'm an asshole. I've been unfair to you. I've been so emotional towards you. We used to be so happy together but thing's change for a reason. But this, this isn't you. This is not who you used to be when i first met you. You were positive, you were everything i could ever ask for. You were far more than wonderful.

It takes two hands to clap. If i'm gonna do it alone, i'll be the weakest link and you......... Who are you planning to be now. I miss you, i miss how you always makes me laugh even the little things you do. I miss how you used to hug me from the back and make me feel so secured. I miss how you would hold my hands and play with them. I miss everything about you. So, please. Take good care of my heart. You know, i love you..... , don't you ?

Busy with work

2010-03-09T23:37:00.002+08:00

Dear bloggy,

Sorry i hadn't used you for quite a long time. I'll use you once i'm free from work. I miss you so much. Take care.

love, your owner.

%$%#@!

2010-03-03T23:05:00.004+08:00

I'm really getting so impatient with Singaporean Customers, really!

$%&*@#!!

exhausted

2010-03-01T23:48:00.001+08:00

Im really fucking tired of working becos i can't stand the costumers, especially those fancy, rich and impatient mother-fucker!

ITE Interview

2010-02-24T22:54:00.001+08:00

haiyaaaaaaaaaa

2010-02-23T23:33:00.003+08:00

Such a pity, this blog seems dead.

I don't have time to blog anymore, i'm packed with my work!

I love you moon

2010-02-20T13:20:00.001+08:00

When i took a step back, looking through those

photographs we took together.

They stay close in my heart.You know why?

Cause you're the first guy totake my breath away.

and i like it, i like the way you love me. '

Reunited

2010-02-18T23:49:00.004+08:00

"Uploading pictures to blog is so fucking slow, im losing my patience!"

Been looking forward to meet up with Seri and edah. So, we finally did. Mimmie and Hadi tag along. The more, the merrier it is.

Anyways, i'm new in tumblr, just started it recently but it's only for inspiration. No worries, i'm still blogging. (:

2010-02-15T00:43:00.005+08:00

'When i took a step back, looking through those

photographs we took together.

They stay close in my heart.You know why?

Cause you're the first guy to take my breath away.

and i like it, i like the way you love me. '

Valentine's day

2010-02-14T23:55:00.004+08:00

"Dear Lovebirds,

Happy Valentine's Day, i hope you all have a splendid time ahead."

Hadi surprise me with this necklace.

I got this cake from my brother.

Happy Birthday Dearest Seri Yusreen

May'll your wish come true, ily.

B.S.W, Such a good old times.

Im glad we're still in contact and hoping to get back together again.

tumblr

2010-02-13T12:39:00.007+08:00

I'm starting to use tumblr.

Common multiply

2010-02-12T23:46:00.003+08:00

I've been meeting Hadi this whole week. Though the last four days were just an hour meet up, it still counts. So, today he fetch me from work since he had his day off and tomorrow is my day off. I'm really looking forward for this Sunday, we'll be working together.

Do you think i look better with or without make-up ? hmmmm.

A little catching up

2010-02-11T23:24:00.011+08:00

A need of catching up to do, right girls ?

If only we got into the same outlet, we wont have to separate with each other. Now that we're separated, its gonna be a little hard to do meet up. But whatever it is, i'll try to find time for you girls.

I've been working this whole week, my legs gonna drop off anytime now. Damn it.

Tons of workload

2010-02-08T21:00:00.006+08:00

It's only been a day at work but i'm starting to feel the pressure already. Sadly, my best of friends Tasha, Demi, Haniz and some of the others will be transfered to Terminal 1. So, it leaves me and Hadi and some of whom i've not yet met. Unfortunately, Hadi and i are not in the same shift except for Sunday. Oh well, wish me luck for the upcoming challenge ahead.

Every time i see kids in school uniform, it constantly remind me of the good times i had in school. I'm starting to miss my ex-schoolmates and girlfriends. Please meet up soon.

Finally we're reach

2010-02-07T13:39:00.005+08:00

Yesterday was my Eight monthsary with Hadi.
and it was also my second CBTL training. So, i spent the whole day with Hadi and friends. The first few hours were exhausting but i manage to stay up for the whole learning journey.

My CBTL friends

My girlfriends

Unconcern

2010-02-02T21:04:00.005+08:00

What a pity, the blog seems dead, i can see spiderwebs everywhere!
How i wish i could spent more time on you bloggy but time just wont let me.
I'm still sick and it's already been a week. Damn it.

I wanna go out, i can't stand rotting at home every day.

A cousin who live so far away.

2010-01-31T00:38:00.003+08:00

We may not see each other as often but your presence are felt more than you know. Am looking forward for Kakak Alis's Wedding, where all my families gather together.

Like Hadi, Like Sery

2010-01-28T21:15:00.010+08:00

I will never forget the first time that we met,
i remember it like it was yesterday.
It stays deep in my heart,
the day you found me.

We're one of the bean's family!

2010-01-26T22:57:00.006+08:00

I've been spending more time with Hadi, three days straight. So, ladies, we have catching up to do.

Monday - Had an interview and the both of use were hired.

Tuesday - Collected uniform and had an injection.

Wednesday - Orientation at Redhill.

Go away boredom!

2010-01-25T23:00:00.002+08:00

I've finally got a job! :D

Sentosa outing

2010-01-25T00:01:00.005+08:00

My family and i celebrated Alysya's birthday at Sentosa. We were planning to go to Fort Siloso but unfortunately, the last tour had already began. So, we went to Underwater world instead. After wards, we walked around to see the Hotels available there. Then, we headed to Beach road for dinner.

I got a call from Coffee Bean, they've asked to come down for Interview tomorrow. But Hadi is still confuse whether he wanna work there or not. So, i've no idea if i'm going tomorrow. I want a job so badly!!!

Palawan Beach

M i s s i n g

2010-01-23T23:11:00.005+08:00

I miss Noraini and when at times, i just love disturbing her and test-tube.
I miss Shahaniz and when she laughed at me for disturbing Noraini.
I miss Edaah, when she's not around, i just feel incomplete.
I miss Arina and going to school and wherever with her without fail.
I miss Herdawatie and her lame but very funny jokes during recess.
I miss yanaa and her very slow reaction when everyone get the whole idea already.
I miss Ain, especially when i was talking about A, she was talking about B.
I miss Demi and during art lesson, we go together here and there.
I miss Amira and her lost looking face.
I miss Tasha, we used to go tuition and lepak together every single week.
I miss Norsah, how we used to be close together.
I miss Fie, during maths lesson, he never fail to teach me and make me laugh.
I miss Afi, calling him girlish nickname just to make him pissed off with me.

I miss so many people, i wish we had more times with each other. :((

Job hunting 2

2010-01-22T23:10:00.008+08:00

I love this guy to the core though we've only been dating about 7months plus now. I met him just now for Job hunting. We went to Orchard for Isetan and then to Burger King. I've got another job interview in Eunos but the guy only called me except Hadi. So, i might not be going cause we've planned to work together.

Goodnight. :D

job hunting

2010-01-21T23:48:00.007+08:00

Job Hunting with Hadi at ehub. Tomorrow, im going out to Orchard with him for Job hunting AGAIN! :DDDDD