★ Pain and cries
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Feeling lethargic nowadays. Though none of them even notice it, its useless to say anyway, im contented enough. Nevertheless, everyone arounds me tries to make me happy. Its already good enough for you to try, thank you. Thank you for being such a great friend.
Im sick and tired of getting sleepless night. Just trying to figure out what to do with ourselves and considering nothing else. I feel like im selling out. I see all the windows closing all of my dreams. I should have stayed and watched as they all fade out. I dont care about getting by. Hearing all those pain and cries i had in the middle of the night, made me realise i lose so much in life.
I feel that I do not have the strength, tragedies plaguing me solemnly. It's affecting my will. But wait, now that I've found you, situations from dark now change to gray. Fate seems to recreate, I just cannot escape, somethings holds me down and makes me act a way I can't explain. Even now I can feel it coming over me, choking me, as I'm falling behind. You can say you know me, but you have no clue what my dreams could show you.
Now sit there and judge me for the things that I say but you don't understand pain and I pity you anyway. But for those of you who hear me, lets go some where else away from here. 
My lips trembled faintly as i tried to handle this pain, alone. I shuddered to realise that it is my own doing to my own self that has made this into the fcuked up reality show. Thanks to many, i felt that my life is cursed, forever. Knowing that i only spent so much time trying to face this feeling alone while you were gone....... Tell me, where were you when i was in need. who else should i turn to. who else could bother to help me with this pain im going through. NO one, except you.Im trying to stop crying, i cant stand my own sound. My pain is too painful and its only tearing myself down. Every where i go, i hear glass breaking.
I just wanna run away from life and all that comes along with it. There are so many people i hate in this world. One of them, myself. Having gone through so much of life. Its unfair that one thing good never last, not for me. Some one, some where, out there just has t take it all away from me. Who else to blame ? but myself.
And I've tried just to separate dreams from reality. Try to satisfy this wanting, Try to stay righteous, try to stay sober, but then, I can't win.
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