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In the very next second
i felt i still need you there in my arms

^favourite...

^johor's house

^family meeting
I finally realise how life works and i seriouslydon't believe that everything were plan up.Its the way how we handle things on our own.Like for example my mum don't go around ordering peopleon what to do. She only prepare when something goes wrong.And in fact, its what she thinks best for us. Thats why i obeyher advise and let her held my hand to lead me a happier path.I don't mind losing my love, and care and friends for my mum.Cause she brought me into this world and she matter the mostin my whole entire life. Even though some times i fought with her,she still treat me well and gave me pocket money to survived.As my days pass by, my feeling of happiness, turn down. As you can see, im facing a lot of problems right now. I don't know what else i could do to save my relationship. excuse me, i took advise from wan, and this what i get paid for.Its not making things in place, but its taking me no where. No fairytales to continues, no love to share. cause its all-almost-over.Yet, hes there for a reason. And i decide to choose another way?that makes no sense at all. All the things that i gave away, is just a waste of my time and every minute of my life. You can tell me a million times of goodbye, but it won't change a bit of what you've said earlier before this things end.....Like ohh my god, what were you thinking...?Haven't you promise earlier that you would keep things in touch for me.And in the end, you betrayed my heart and soul for a stupid and unreasonable one. Whats that for? Thanks eh. You had successfully break my heart. I HATE YOUU. i rather get drunk and hit by a car. atleast than, i'll die peacefully than have to see your smile......